Panic attacks centered around food and a fear of death

My client, a Canadian woman in her early forties, sought my help for anxiety and panic attacks centered around food and a fear of death since her teens. She experienced feelings of faintness / passing out if she didn't eat her meals on time or made unhealthy food choices. She had struggled with an eating disorder since her teens, in which she became very selective about food and engaged in purging behaviours, which lasted for over a decade.

She had two panic attacks recently, triggered by dehydration. To put her fears to rest, she did a comprehensive cardiovascular testing and was declared healthy but she continued experiencing anxiety. She prioritised keeping fit, eating healthily and working out regularly and experienced panic whenever she felt her body wasn't in optimal condition.
She also wanted to explore her connection with her ex-boss whom she feels strongly linked to. He became emotionally abusive and they had a very tumultuous relationship. She experienced insights into three past lives that were related to her current challenges. In her first session, she saw a past life as a plantation owner in USA in the 1800’s who owned slaves on his farm.


Client: “I see a red shovel, medium-sized, stuck in the dirt. The ground is muddy. I’m by myself. I’m on a produce farm that’s growing carrots. I’m wearing boots, they got stuck in the mud. I’m a guy, dressed like a farmer. I had on brown leather gloves and watch and coveralls. I have a brown felt hat on my head. I’m white skinned. I’m scruffy. I have blonde brown hair, blue eyes. I look dirty.”
Me: “Go to the house where you live.”
Client: “I live in a big white house. It’s really nice looking. I’m thinking about money or profit. How to make more money. I’m angry at the state of my fields. I’m really angry, like I’m a businessman, furious that they messed up my fields, it’s not supposed to look like this. I’m plotting what I’m gonna do to fix this.
Me: “Which country are you in?”
Client: “The US. I’m in the fields. I feel really strong. I’m a big guy with muscle. I don’t want to be messed with. Someone is trying to take advantage of me. The workers didn’t do a good job on the fields.”
I instructed the client to go inside the house.
Client: “It’s very clean. I have to take my muddy stuff off. It’s a really nice house. Kinda like a plantation house. It’s made of white wood. Nicely decorated, like a woman decorated it. I didn’t decorate this. I have a nice desk. I’m some kind of business person.”
Me: “Do you work in the fields?”
Client: “I don’t think I was working, I was just inspecting. I think it’s my fields. I went out there and I was really furious. My wife is in the house. She doesn’t want to come near me ‘cos I’m really angry. I’m slamming my hand on the table.”
Client recognised a worker (slave) there, as her ex-boss in her last job.
“I feel like he’s a slave that works on the plantation and he’s living in the shack. I went over to the shack where he lives. He’s a mischief causer. He wrecked something on the fields. He dug it up wrong and made a mess. I’m gonna lose money. I’m so angry that I want to get him.”
(Client sees in third person POV.)
“He’s mad at this worker and thinking what he wants to do with him. He thinks, “If I go to him, I will probably beat him up.” He picks him up with his hands and threw him against the wall, and the guy yells, “Please, I’m sorry, I’m sorry”. After beating him up the owner leaves. He doesn’t kill him. There are other people there when he’s beating him. He’s not alone. The male slaves live in the separate building from the women slaves.”
“I think I’m not a good guy. I’m the master of the area / plantation or like a lord. I don’t really care about anything except for money. My slave lost me money.”
“My wife is there and makes the house nice, but she keeps clear of me ‘cos I’m really angry and maybe violent. I don’t care about people, I don’t care about the slaves. I don’t really care about my wife; she’s there and her job is to keep the house nice. I think there are babies in the house. There is someone taking care of the babies but I have no interest in them.”
Me: “What year is it?”
Client: “1800’s.”
Next scene:
“I’m in the town. I’m being honoured as the mayor or something. I was the special person of the town and I feel really prideful. I think I might have done something to get to that role. People are scared of me, because I’m not a nice person but I have a lot of power.”
Me: “What do they address you as?”
Client: “Mayor, and they take their hat off when they see me. I feel like I’ve made it, like this is it. Like I’m at the top. Like this is life, this is success. I don’t even feel like there’s a lack of love. There’s no love but I don’t even care.”
I moved client forward to the end of the life.
Client: “I’m watching my own funeral”.
Me: “What did you die of?”
Client: “It was shortly after I became the mayor. It feels like I was poisoned by my slave, X, as I didn’t kill him earlier. He poisoned me. I was drinking and eating, then I felt a pain in my stomach and died. People are relieved. My wife and people in the house were relieved that I died. X, the slave escaped. I don’t think anyone missed me.”
“This guy, X, has been sneaky the whole time, trying to steal from me. He’s been sneaking around the property. I caught him before. I gave him warnings. I think I almost killed him before. He might have run away before but they brought him back to me.”
“I think his family works there too and I think I might have hurt them, beat them or attacked them or something awful. His whole family are slaves. He was angry at me for that. He was trying to sabotage my business.”
Me: “Do the slaves get any payment or do they just work?“
Client: “They just work, get food and shelter, they don’t get money. They have to work”.
Me: “What do you see at the funeral?”
Client: “The funeral is on a grassy hill. A few business people were there. The slaves weren’t there. My wife and kids were there. They weren’t even crying. No one was crying. I have four children. They’re all little. I don’t even know their names, I don’t think I really cared.”
Me: “Reflecting on the past life that you saw just now, what were the lessons that you learned?”
Client: “It felt like it was a lot of responsibility to have slaves. It was a headache to keep them fed. Looking at it from a third person perspective, that guy was angry at the slave, but the guy didn’t seem unhappy without love. I don’t know if his heart was closed off. He didn’t seem to have feelings at all. He was very much in his head. His life seems very flat. It just seems about money and more and more. There was no sadness, he never felt sad. He felt annoyed by this slave for some reason. He didn’t want to kill the him.”
Me: “How do you feed the slaves?”
Client: “With the food they grow. The slaves grow their own food on the farm. They eat their own food. Wheat, rice or veggies. Maybe some chicken. I didn’t kill him, because he may actually be my son. I might have had him with a slave. I didn’t love him and still treated him like a slave but better than the other slaves. That’s why he was allowed to get away with mischief and I didn’t kill him. He is younger, like a teenager.”
(Client later told me that the man had bright blue, beautiful eyes. And the slave had the same kind of blue eyes, which may indicate that the slave may be the man’s son, despite the difference in skin colour).
I asked client about how that lifetime related to the current life in where she felt the necessity to nourish her body through healthy and timely meals.
Client: “The slaves didn’t get much food, they were starving a lot. I only fed them scraps and small amounts of food. Often, they fainted from not enough food or water. But I didn’t care. I can see one woman out in the fields. She passed out and the other slaves had to take her in. My wife looks out and looks concerned, but I don’t care. They had to eat whatever they were given, but they were often without food. They often passed out. They didn’t panic, they had no choice. It was really horrible for them.”
Me: “They can’t grow food on their own?”
Client: “No, all food is grown on the plantation and they get a very small amount of it. The least amount possible. But enough so they could work.”
Reflection:
It appears that the client's past life and current life share striking similarities, especially regarding feelings of being unloved and grappling with dominance and power dynamics. As a child, she experienced a lack of love from her parents, struggled to connect with others, and hardly had any friends. Even her siblings were afraid of her, as she was mean towards them when she was younger, mirroring traits from her past life.
She found the connection to her ex-boss in the present life, who appeared as a slave in the past life regression. Her past life persona had wielded dominance over the slaves and exhibited traits of anger and violent behaviour when things didn't go as desired. Unresolved dynamics or conflicts from past lives add another layer of complexity to her relationships which explains why her current life relationship was tumultuous.
Was the anxiety and panic attacks a form of karmic consequence? It could be. By mistreating the workers and denying them sufficient food, the plantation owner may have generated negative karma, resulting in anxiety and panic attacks in the current life. In the current life, there was fear of not having enough food/timely meals, as seen in the client's anxiety surrounding food and the need for control over meals.
The client's current struggles with anxiety may serve as an opportunity for healing and growth. I facilitated a healing session at the end, and she realised that she needed to have more love, understanding, and compassion, which was missing from the past life.

Note:
The panic attacks and anxiety which revolved around food in her current life weren’t confined to just one lifetime, as revealed in her second past life regression therapy session. (Part 2 will be shared later).

Untrollable Anger & Violent Outbursts

My client, in his late twenties, had struggled with a bad temper and uncontrollable anger and violent outbursts dating back to his primary school years. He would be quarrelling and shouting and he would kick or punch walls and even bang his head against them, sometimes injuring himself. This behaviour persisted into adulthood, triggered by various situations.

I regressed him back to the root cause of the issue, which went all the way back to the Neolithic Era (New Stone Age).


In that lifetime, he was a plump man, of average height, with tan skin and thick curly black hair, and a moustacheHe wore clothes made of animal skin and lived in a circular house with a roof of made of long branches tied together. It was on a grassland with other similar standalone houses. The walls were light yellow, made of clay.

He saw his wife carrying a baby and later putting the baby down to sleep on a comfy wooden platform covered with dried grass. He wore clothes made of animal skin and lived in a circular house with a roof of made of long branches tied together. It was on a grassland with other similar standalone houses. The walls were light yellow, made of clay. He saw his wife carrying a baby and later putting the baby down to sleep on a comfy wooden platform covered with dried grass.

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In the next scene, he saw that his village was attacked by a group of attackers.

“They ran all around the village, carrying weapons, which look like long knives or axes. They were dressed like cavemen, wearing animal skin on their body. I see one of the attackers take the axe and attack people. The whole village was under attack,” he said.

“They went to my house. They killed my wife and baby. I tried to stop them but couldn’t do anything. I was also killed.”

Client started sobbing. Crying is common during past life regression and is a form of catharsis. Recognition and realization automatically releases strong emotions, accompanied by healing and empowerment, as the trapped negative energy associated with the past life story gets released.

Witnessing the attackers killing his wife and baby, he had felt very helpless as he couldn’t do anything to protect them, and he was also killed in the end. This sense of powerlessness or helplessness mirrored the feelings he experienced when triggered or angry in his current life, where he would start punching, kicking or banging head on walls, and end up hurting himself.

Reflection:

Subconsciously, he carried guilt from that lifetime for not being able to protect and save his wife and baby. He recognised his past-life wife as his girlfriend in the current life. He feels deeply protective of her and feels that they are together in this lifetime to complete living their life together.

By viewing that lifetime, the blockages around the issue were released and I facilitated a healing session after the client viewed that past lifetime. Following the session, there was a noticeable shift in his aura, and he looked happier and felt lighter.

When I followed up with him a few days after that, he noted an improvement compared to before. He had increased awareness of his reactions and a greater connection with his subconscious mind. He felt more mindful and found that incidents that used to trigger him and evoke feelings of helplessness didn’t trigger him as easily after that.


Abrupt Ending to a Decade-Long Friendship?

My client, in her thirties, of British nationality, came for a Past Life Regression therapy session to understand about the abrupt ending of her 10 year-long friendship with someone whom she regarded as her best friend, leaving her perplexed and seeking clarity through the session. She regressed to a time in ancient Greece and through the regression, she understood the origins of this issue. 

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Below is her PLR experience:

Client: "I’m in an ancient city, made from stone. It is white / cream in colour. It’s busy. There are people everywhere. They are working. They wear peasant clothes; loose materials, rags. Some people are transporting goods, some are messing around with their friends. Their skin colour are like people of Greek, Egyptian or Mediterranean origin."

"I’m a man. Very strong, tall and tanned. I’m wearing sandals. I’m carrying a log over my shoulder. It’s a very simple life – old and ancient."

Me: "Go to the place where you live"

Client: "I live in a 2-storey house made of white clay, with a balcony. It’s terraced. There are other houses next to it. Inside the house, there are mats on the floor. There is a stove fireplace. It is used to heat some tea. The first storey is a kitchen and living room. The second storey is a bedroom."

Me: "What country are you in?"

Client: "I’m in Greece."

Me: "Do you live alone or with anyone?"

Client: "I have a mum and a brother. I’m somewhere in my late twenties to early thirties. We are eating chopped tomato and cucumber, with bread, olive oil and cheese."

"I have a good relationship with my younger brother. We get on well. He admires me and looks up to me. We do many things together."

I moved client forward to the next scene:

Client: "My brother is in distress and needs my help. He’s panicking. I can’t understand him. He’s speaking in another language."

I guided the client to understand what the brother, in his mid-twenties, was saying. During the past life regression session, if the client isn’t able to understand what a person is saying in the past life scene, due to a different language, I will guide them to understand the dialogue or communication taking place.  

Client: "He is saying, “You have to come and help! There’s a collapse!” He’s in panic."

"His friends were in some sort of cave, the roof caved in and they were trapped in the rubble. There’s nothing I can do. I feel like I can’t help him."

"I’m trying to tell my brother that there’s nothing we could do. The stones are too heavy to lift. I told him that they shouldn’t have been in there in the first place. My brother was just outside when it happened."

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"After that incident, my brother resented me. He changed. A part of him died that day. He really resented me and sort of blamed me in many ways. He felt judged by me as I had warned him against going there. He was tired of me being right. He felt that we should have tried but we didn’t even try."

"I tried to tell him that it was futile. There was nothing that could be done. We had gone to the cave but found that the entrance to the cave was totally blocked. He was in a lot of guilt. If things had somehow been different, his friends could have been saved. But the stones were too heavy, none of us could lift it. I don’t know if they were doing something with dynamite that caused it to rupture, but they were doing something they shouldn’t.”

I moved client forward to the end of life. 

Client: "I had regrets about how I reacted towards my brother, I wish I hadn’t made him feel small, in that he was somehow lesser. I could have been more tactful in how I approached him and cared for him. It was never the same after that, ‘cos it really affected his life. He struggled to let go of what happened and blamed me in many ways. I wish I had helped or had tried to move the rocks for his sake, that I tried to help when he needed me."

 
I facilitated a healing and forgiveness session to help the client to heal and let go.  After the session, I asked the client to reflect if there were parallels in this current life and the past life. She replied affirmatively, recognizing a pattern in her behavior towards her friend. She realised that she had previously reacted similarly towards her friend, being highly critical and judgemental of her friend’s actions.

She had unconsciously carried forward the same behavioural traits to this life, treating her friend in the same manner as she had treated the younger brother in the past life. Therefore, her friend's reactions were unsurprising, given the dynamics at play. She is uncertain if their friendship would improve, but she expressed a sense of relief as she had a deeper understanding of where this issue originated from.


Is it possible for a heart attack to have its origins in a past life?

As the past life regression session neared its end, I facilitated a healing session for my client, in his sixties. Suddenly, he had a startling revelation about the cause of his heart attack over a decade ago, when he saw a vision from his past life.

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Client: “I killed an animal. That’s the reason why I got a heart attack.”

Me: "What animal is that?"

Client: “It’s a four-legged animal with fur. It looks like a dog. Maybe it’s a wolf. I killed it with a spear.”

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Client told me that he had a first-person point of view and saw himself holding the spear and feeling the sensation of piercing the wolf through its heart with it. 

Me: "How old are you?"

Client: “I was very young, around 10+ years old. It happened in the forest. I was with two friends. I was protecting my friends. My friends were alright." 


I guided him to seek forgiveness from the animal and in his vision, a remarkable transformation occurred. He saw the fierce wolf become docile and lay down at his feet, just like a dog. 

Is it possible for a heart attack to have its origins in a past life? 
Was his heart attack a karmic consequence of killing a wolf in his past life? We may never know with absolute certainty; ultimately, it may not matter. 

What truly matters is that he has sought forgiveness, released, and let go of this subconscious burden, leaving it in the past where it belongs. He came out of the session with a sense of lightness as this revelation brought him clarity and understanding.
The session has facilitated a process of forgiveness, release, and healing, guiding him towards a state of peace and clarity.
 


Presentation on Past Life Regression Therapy

I'm honoured to be invited to speak on Past Life Regression Therapy at the Dhamma Therapy event in March organised by Sasanarakkha Buddhist Sanctuary. I will also be sharing some interesting PLR experiences of my clients. 

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