Talk on Phobias, Panic attacks and Relationship issues

I will be giving a talk on “Phobias, panic attacks and relationship issues - A past life regression perspective” on Saturday, 28 October 2017, 8.30 pm at the invitation of Persatuan Buddhist Hilir Perak, Teluk Intan. 

Extramarital relationship # 2

A lady in her thirties who’s in an extramarital relationship, wanted to see the connection to her boyfriend

I see a room with pictures of people on the wall. There are pictures of people in the army. They are mainly paintings. It looks like a study room. There’s a piano. There’s a bigger window outside. There’s a garden outside. It looks like a colonial kind of house. Like in the British old time movies. I’m a woman. I take a book from the study room.

It’s nice weather. It’s not very hot or cold. It’s green with forest at the side. I am sitting on the grass. I’m lying on the grass. I’m in my early twenties. I’m very happy. Just staring up in the sky. There are quite a lot of people nearby. It’s like a picnic. They’re quite far away. I have a book. I’m reading my book under the sun.

Next scene:

There’s a war. I see people fighting. There are some people in army clothes outside, marching. I’m looking down from a building. I feel a general fear. I see a lot of buildings around me. I can see the march pass.

I’m back in my house. I see someone setting the table for dinner. She’s wearing a uniform with fluffy things. It is grayish in colour. It is a huge table. The table seats 15 – 20 people. To get to the dining room, I have to pass a sliding door.

I’m having dinner. I’m sitting at the head of the table. There’s a lot of merriment. There’s a lot of conversation. Everybody looks at me when I talk. I don’t recognize the people. There’s a guy next to me. I can’t hear the conversation. It seems like a lot of people at the table. But there’s this person next to me. I don’t know who he is. He’s whispering something to me.

There are kids under the table. Somebody rolls a ball and kids are running under the ball. I get very agitated when that happens. The boy is elder. I scold the kids. The girl is younger. She’s sitting at the table when she finishes. The maid takes the children away. Now, it’s just the adults.

It’s night already. I’m going up. I go to my room. I’m rich. I’m definitely not in Asia. It’s cold. There are lots of blankets. There is a man with me. He’s my husband.  He’s not the same man who was sitting beside me earlier. The windows are open. The wind is blowing. I get up and close the windows. It’s very cosy under the sheets.

There’s a big glass door. I walk out of it, into the balcony. It’s very dark. The sky is full of stars. I cannot sleep. It’s kind a colorless night. I feel alone, although I have so many people around me. It’s like a kind of yearning. I have a shawl. White in colour. I pull it. There’s a moon, so there’s a bit of light. I’m really sad.

I am sleeping. My husband is smiling. He feels like my current life husband.

Next  scene:

I’m going to take a book from the study. The guy that I was talking with earlier at the dinner table, is there. We’re arguing. There are books lying all over the place. I asked him to go out and he does. I run after him. I have a relationship with him. I recognized him as my current life boyfriend.

I’m on the staircase on the house. My children are upstairs and they saw me. My husband is upstairs sleeping. Now I close the door as the man has left. I’m crying in bed. I don’t know what we argue about.

Many years later:

I’m still the same house. It’s slightly older already. I don’t work. I’m a lady of leisure. I’m a widow. I am at a big table, writing. I live in the country side with a big drive-in. It’s a big house. It’s a bit lonely. I have an archery corner in the house. It’s raining outside. I like the sound of rain on tar. The driveway is made of cobblestones.

There is a guest. It’s the same person. We’re shaking hands. He sits now. I give him tea. He’s the same person as the one at the dinner. He is my current life boyfriend. He’s just older. He’s single.

He’s older. I’m older. He touches my hand. There’s nobody else in the house. I’m widowed. My children have grown up. We spent a few years together. We have no children. I don’t think I married him.

Death transition:

I died before him. I died of old age. My body is in the coffin but I’m around the room, watching. I’m watching my funeral. It’s simple. The casket is open. I can see my face. There are many people lining up (to pay their respects). I have grandchildren. My kids are there. My last thought as I left that lifetime is that we will see each other again. I’m leaving the room now. 

Extramarital relationship # 1

A lady in her late twenties wanted to understand the connection to her boyfriend in her extramarital relationship and intended to end the relationship.

It is daytime. I am outdoors. I’m wearing red skirt, pink shirt with white shoe. I’m 20 years old. I’m thin, with white skin and blonde hair. My eyes are brown in colour. I see a river near me. There’s a bridge. I’m waiting for someone. I’m waiting for my boyfriend. I don’t see him yet. I feel anxious. We can’t meet so often, because he has someone else. I’ve been waiting awhile. I don’t see him coming. I don’t see anyone.

I’m in the mountains. I’m just walking around. There are many people selling things. I’m alone. My boyfriend is with me now. He is tall and young. He’s with me now. We’re walking together. I’m very happy with him. I’m going back home.

Next scene:

I’m in a village. I see my husband coming back. He was my boyfriend, whom I married. I am not happy. He’s angry. We have an argument. He has another girl outside, and we are fighting. He slapped me. He goes out. I cry. He left the house. I didn’t have any children. I recognize my husband as my current life boyfriend.

Next scene:

I’m giving birth. I’m in my house. I’m so poor. My husband just doesn’t love me anymore. He’s not happy. I see a lady near me. I don’t know who she is. I’m crying and crying as I give birth. The birth is smooth. I have a baby boy. I’m very depressed because my husband doesn’t love me anymore.

I saw my husband coming, telling me that he’s leaving for the other woman. So, I’m cursing him. I said that I’ll be back in the next life, to be in between them. My husband’s mistress, she is as young as me. They are together after that.

I’m leaving with my baby. I’m a farmer.  I work in the paddy fields. We are poor. And I’m not happy.

Next scene:

I see my husband coming back. He has broken up with the lady. He left many years ago. But I couldn’t forgive him. I asked him to go. He has gone again. My child is living without a father. Now he’s growing up. He’s 5 or 6 years old now.  I met someone else. I recognized him as my husband in this life. He’s fair and tall. He’s very nice to me. We are together. I loved him so much. I forget about my first husband.

Next scene:

There’s a big fire. My son is trapped inside. I couldn’t save him. He’s burnt to death. My husband is not around. He’s working. I’m very sad. Very very sad. I feel like there’s no meaning to live anymore. I fall sick. I’m 30 something years old. My husband is giving me medicine. I just refused to cure myself. I want to let myself die. My husband is crying. He said he loved me. I told him I loved him too. But  I don’t have any will to live anymore, because of my son. I recognize my son as my younger brother in my current life whom I’m very close to.

Awaiting rebirth:

I see many white coloured angels flying around.  I’m waiting for another birth. I’m in a misty place with white coloured angels around. The angel said I’m going to have a good life for my next birth. I feel happy, peaceful. I don’t have a physical body. It’s a soul. It’s just energy. No physical form. I see blue colour and pink colour, round. We’re at this river, waiting for the chance to go to the next life. There are many souls besides me. I can see them. They’re in energy form. I’m white. There are other colours – green, yellow. We are round shaped. There's no outline. Just a soul. We’re all waiting there for our next birth.

Lesson learnt:

I recognized my husband, my boyfriend and my brother in this life. I’m meeting up with my boyfriend in this life because of revenge, due to what he had done to me in the past life. I feel attraction and anger at the same time with my current life boyfriend. I’m together with this husband again because the last time I owed him so much, because I refused to give him more after my son’s death. 

Note: This person's experience shows the impact of vows / curses made in a previous lifetime and the reason why there was a love-hate connection between her boyfriend and her.